Mid Week Smile Sermon – Mental Health

Happy Wednesday beautiful people.

First and foremost, Happy Birthday to my blade life hero and dear friend Mark Pattenden. 

I haven’t been my smiley self the last few days, I’m not sure why, could be my stinking cold/man flu. But sometimes you just outrun yourself with positivity and you need a couple of days to mope.

When you have these days, acknowledge them and just lie there with them. Knowing in time that they will pass. And they always do. Trust me!

It was international Mental Health week at the start of October and I did want to do a post about it as it is a very important issue. 

I’m glad the media are supporting it so well.

I’ve loved seeing all of the support for mental illness in the last few weeks. 

Sometimes you feel like NONE of your plans are working out, but I won’t moan about them – that won’t change anything but my energy levels and I do not want them dipping. You need to keep your energy high to remain positive.
In the words of Ronan…

I totally appreciate the fact that my next cosmetic operation isn’t life or death.  If an emergency appointment comes rushing in and takes my place I will be gutted, however I’ll appreciate they need my surgeons help more then me…. HOWEVER, that does not stop me from feeling shit for a few days after.

This did upset me for a few days when I first heard the news. But que sera sera. It’s no biggie. On a positive note, I’m off to Rome on Friday! My lovely boyfriend is taking me away for my birthday weekend.

Wow, to spend my 29th in Rome will seriously be the best birthday weekend EVER! It falls on a Sunday, so I’ll hear mass said by Pope Francis on my birthday! I’m so lucky!

Although I won’t be coming home for my operation 13th Nov, I’ll sure be coming home with lots of lovely smiles! My darling sister is letting me borrow her Instagram polaroid camera too, so we can take lots of lovely snaps that I can use for decorations in my new flat!  I’m such a lucky lady.

I’m super excited to open a lovely birthday parcel from Medal Miles that arrived this week. I’ll bring it to Rome with me and open it on my birthday, as instructed on the parcel envelope. I have a feeling it’s a Miles Bear, which would be so lovely to have in Rome with me. Thank you Tammie, very sweet of you to send me a birthday gift!

I popped to my gorgeous friend, baby mommas in the making, Alice’s for dinner last night and she gave me a card and present to open when I’m home on Monday too. I have such thoughtful people in my life. Thank you to everyone who makes me smile, and always giving me something to write about!

My gorgeous bestie, Myra, turned 30 last week and although I did pop round to see her with a card and present we haven’t actually celebrated together yet. So I’m looking forward to a lovely dinner date with her tonight at Shiraz. It’s such a lovely persian restaurant! Our favourite meeting spot!

Myra is such a gorgeous person who I am incredibly lucky to have in my life. Check out her beautiful instagram image CLICK HERE 

I won’t be doing a post this Sunday as I’ll be busy chatting with Pope Francis. But I’ll do a Sunday blog post the week after, Sunday 19th. I can’t wait to tell  you all about my travels!

Stay tuned,















Sporty Sunday Smile!

Before I get into my crazy promise to all readers (one which I can see myself regretting soon after, if not before.) I’ll give you a quick run through of my epic/horrific weekend down in Dorset.

But first up, a MASSIVE well done to all of the incredible people who completed the 100 mile bike ride today around Birmingham!

My friend Linda smashed the course with her husband, I’m sorry that I didn’t get to see you at the finish line cheering you on!

A group of lovely people from Queen Elizabeth Hospital Charity, also took part in this event, raising money and awareness to such a good charity.

Well done all of you! I hope that you all completed the cycle successfully and with minimal sores!  I’m glad that the weather held out for you all!

Relevant facts about me:

  • Irrespective of my brain injury, I NEED more sleep/rest than the average person.
  • I should NOT overload my brain with too much activity each day.
  • I should lead a relatively simple life.
  • I can’t sleep when I have so much excitement/nerves on my mind. eg. the day before operations or fun charity events.
  • I get restless and always need to have plans to keep my mind active and as fun as possible.
  • I never learn when to stop. Never ever!

So after a full Dolly Parton (9-5) at work on Friday – which in itself tires me out, I normally work just afternoons – I set off on a long 4 hour drive to Dorset.

Instead of going home to rest, I drove to Dorset to see my dear friend Hannah Moore. She kindly was doing me dinner for when I arrived and the sweetheart waited to eat herself with me. I didn’t get there till  nearly 10pm! Google maps, yet again, decided to have a strop and kept glitching and sending me on a wild goose chase.

On a note to my family – I really need a sat nav for my birthday this year. Or an A2Z.

Hannah made THE BEST apple and blackberry (fruit from her garden) crumble. It was to die for! Seriously, she is a friend for life now. There is no way I’m letting that talent out of my life!

When I got myself to sleep at Hannah’s around midnight, my alarm woke me up at 7am. We both needed to be at the sports centre for 8.30am and I needed to have a quick shower before getting myself ready to take on the challenge of the GoTri Aquathlon. To see this event CLICK HERE

I had a right giggle with Hannah, as I was calling it Aquathon, that sounds normal to me??  But it has an L in it! Which just sounds so weird when pronouncing it. AquathLon? haha. Whoever came up with that name must have had a speech impediment.


The three of us smashed it!!!

Hannah completed the course super quick, in 24 minutes. Sarah was not far behind her. Then I came in at 46 minutes. Which I was really proud of. I did my best and I was happy with the result. Hannah and Sarah kindly came round and did a final lap with me too, such lovely supportive friends! Thank you both so much.

Another collection to my medals! Yippee.

The drive home was so lovely, taking in all of the beautiful scenery, which I’d missed in a frantic drive in the dark on my way down there.

The A46 on the way home from Dorset was so so beautiful! I literally had to stop to take a quick snap on my Instagram story but it didn’t do it justice at all.

If you’d like to check out my Instagram CLICK HERE. The insta story has probably ended now though.

So, the whole “pay it forward” motion, with the fundraising for blade prosthetics, is starting to look like it’s going to start next year.

Myself, Hannah and Mark (hopefully), will be doing a HALF MARATHON. Just the thought of it at the minute for me, scares the life out of me!!!!

I don’t have anyone coaching me with my running! (apart from Mark & Hannah sharing their support and advice) So I need to really whip myself into a better shape.

I need to really buck myself up and increase my distances, if we are going to do this. I have plenty of time to train. It starts tomorrow in fact! I’ll be in the gym running and doing core strength weights to increase my stamina and muscle  repetition.  1 hour a day for 6 days a week  will be my life as of tomorrow. There, I’ve said it!

I will keep a diary of my fitness to check up on myself and make sure I’m not slacking! I need to just envisage the 1/2 marathon medal and strive for that!

My dear friend Fiona is doing the Birmingham 1/2 marathon next weekend so I can check out her medal for inspiration. I will take a picture of it and save it as my phone wallpaper to stop me from slacking every time I look at my phone.  Which is a lot!

This will happen!

I’ve declared it now to all of my blog followers, (all 3 of you).  If any of you see me slacking please scream …



#SSS End of Summer Smiles #FaceEquality

MTV Gibraltar Calling

I had THE BEST time in Gibraltar last weekend.

I flew over on Friday 1st September, what a wonderful start to the new month!

I just want to say a massive thank you to my beautiful Aunty Tee, whose birthday it was yesterday!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!! AND

Thank you for such an amazing time with all of your beautiful friends. I had a great time and I’ll cherish all of the smiles it gave me.

I especially loved my main man Craig David. God he is good, a true gentleman with a heart of gold too. Thanks for putting on such a good performance and making everybody feel special.

I’ll never forget our little encounter at work last year – such a lovely guy!


I’ve gone and done it again!!! Yay another medal!

Thank you to the kind people who have sponsored me for this. Your donations are really appreciated and make the sore bottom, from socket rub, that little bit more worthwhile!

I completed a soaking wet 5k run yesterday morning. It was torrential rain over Birmingham and my dearest friends Fiona & Bethany, who are training for the Birmingham 1/2 marathon kindly did this run too. They kindly waited at the end of the race, in the rain, to cheer me on at the finish line.

I’m sure that they could have done an extra couple of laps in the time that it took me to finish! I walked most of the corners and puddled areas and my gosh there were a few.

A drowned rat after my 5k

I have a serious problem. Why can’t I just run casually in the park and enjoy the sunshine and the birds?  Why do I feel such an urge to do a fundraising run!? Come rain or shine!? – In this case, rain, and lots of it too!

I decided to do this for Changing Faces, a charity very close to my heart, whom I’ve recently become a volunteer for. I’ll enjoy getting more involved with this charity and hopefully help to raise their platform even more to people with various facial differences.

If you’d like to kindly donate for my run please do pop a penny into their donation pot CLICK HERE or if you’d like to make a cash donation to me to post, I have a sponsorship form that I’ll be posting at the end of this week, Friday 15th.

Thank you to those who have already made a donation, it is really kind of you to support people, like me, living with facial differences. This charity does so much to empower those living day to day struggles. Like my dear friend Tulsi…..

Beauty comes from within… Be Beautiful xxx

P.S Thank you to my darling boyfriend for proof reading  for me again. (I did get a 2:1 at UofB somehow, honest!) xxx

Introducing the modern day Wonder Woman -@Iskra ‏Lawrence

Here is a lovely video from the beautiful Iskra Lawrence. I have so much respect for this beautiful lady and love following her on Instagram, YouTube and Facebook.

I’ve been following Iskra for a while now, I found her first of all with her TEDx Talk “Ending the pursuit of perfection….”

??Model in NY ✨ Real Role Model ✨Creator of NEDAinspires + ambassador ✨Self-Care Advocate ✨Instagram ✨ YouTuber ?

Thank you Iskra for all the incredible work you do empowering others and filling women with confidence that they may be lacking.

Self Compassion

After a chat with my wonderful councillor Abeda, she suggested that I do a blog post on Self-compassion, after discussing my lack of it…

So first of all I thought that I’d find a good description detailing what I mean by ‘self compassion’.

So here are a few definitions;

  • Self-kindness vs. Self-judgment. Self-compassion entails being warm and understanding toward ourselves when we suffer, fail, or feel inadequate, rather than ignoring our pain or flagellating ourselves with self-criticism.
  • With self-compassion, we give ourselves the same kindness and care we’d give to a good friend. – Dr Kristin Neff
  • Refuse self-pity. Refuse it absoulutley. It is a deadly thing with power to destroy you. – Elisabeth Elliot
  • Self -pity is our worst enemy and if we yield to it, we can never do anything good in the world – Helen Keller
  • Compassion Focused Therapy (CFT) is used to treat problems associated with shame, self-criticism and self-hate, which can be features of anxiety, depression, psychosis and strongly associated with childhood trauma.
  • Paul Gilbert (2011) says “compassionate mind training helps people develop and work with experiences of inner warmth, safeness and soothing, via compassion and self-compassion.”

I am very proud of the fact that I don’t have an inch of self-pity in my life. My heart goes out to anyone who does. I imagine that it’s a horrible way to live your life.

Of course, I’m human, and some days I may feel like things aren’t going the way that I want them to. But not for one minute did I look at a bad situation with a negative thought and a wallowing self-pity. The thought of even entertaining that level of emotion makes me feel uneasy.

When I discussed emotional things with Abeda, I opened up to her and a flood of tears were released from my tear ducts. Those tear drops were loving it!!!! They hadn’t escaped for a very long time, so they went crazy dancing down my cheeks like they were having a tear party.

With self-compassion, we give ourselves the same kindness and care that we’d give to a good friend. I don’t always do that if I’m honest. I mean, I don’t treat myself too badly, but I rarely check up on myself to see how I’m coping. I never give myself that hug and rarely do I ever pat myself on the back after a good effort.

To be fair not a lot of people do give themselves a pat on the back. Firstly, it would look weird, but secondly we’re almost too “modest” to give ourselves recognition of our good work or efforts.

I really need to not beat myself up when I don’t workout/run for a few days, or when I eat meat on an ‘off’ day as a pescetarian, or when I have a REALLY off day and have KFC! Always regret eating it afterwards too.

We are all human and we all make mistakes. We don’t need reminding of these mistakes all the time though. We can never improve our lives if we are focusing on the things that go wrong.

Getting on with life and focusing on the positives was my coping mechanism from my car accident. It’s not “inspirational” it’s just getting on with life and trying to be happy.

We should focus on the things that will make our lives better. The positives that will improve whatever bad situation we find ourselves in.

IF I ever decide to have a child (1 child max) I will teach them to be self-compassionate throughout life, which will hopefully shape their mind in a strong and positive way.

Shaping a young mind is hard work! I’m so not ready to take on that job yet. I’m still reshaping mine at the minute!

Please be kinder to yourself and be sure to be self compassionate rather than self-pitying your situation in hard, testing times.

Remember, the compassion you deserve is not self-indulgence.


Before I tell you about my fabulous time with STEEL BONES at RAF Mildenhall,


Katie;s getting hitched
Old biddies hen weekend!
Princess Katie

I can’t believe this was 6 years ago!!!! I will never forget the pain that those bridesmaid shoes caused me! Super high!! (A pain I do not miss!) And I was still a little midget!

I loved that beautiful day so much, thank you for having me as part of it. Lots of love to you all xxx Katie, Michael, Flo & Mikey-Jo xxx

I had such an amazing day on Friday!

After work Thursday evening I drove down the A14 (my new favourite road). It was such a lovely drive.

The sun was shining and Arcade Fire’s new album Everything Now took me all the way to Cambridge with a big smile on my face.

I really love these guys and was so happy to hear that they were doing a new album and touring!

I immediately brought x2 tickets to see them. It’s not until April next year, but I’ve got 2 tickets and hopefully I’ll make it and have a great time.

If you’d like to get a ticket to see them in Birmingham Genting Arena CLICK HERE

So I stepped foot into USA grounds at RAF Mildenhall on Friday…

I was attending an event held by the incredible organisation, Steel Bones.

To see them on Facebook CLICK HERE

I was first and foremost happy to see the two from the three musketeers...

 Mark and Hannah.

I shared a room with Hannah on Thursday night in a travelodge, not too far from the Mildenhall camp site.

Emma & Hannah and Me

Hannah sharing the love with her blade! The love is so real!!

We all met up at a Road Chef on that complex, for a bite to eat and natter between everyone.

It was so lovely to meet so many new friendly faces. (I’m sorry I’ve forgotten everyones names, but I will not forget all of the giggles that we had.)

It was so lovely to see new faces and make a few new friends.

The excitement just couldn’t keep me asleep. I woke up really early Friday morning, must have been the excitement for the day of fun ahead.

The men and women on the camp were so friendly and welcoming to us all. We had to go through a security check at the start, however, I somehow forgot to bring my driving license. It is lucky that I had a photo of my driving licence on my phone.

It was rather surreal though. It really did feel as though we were in the US when everyone around had an accent and there were such huge foreign looking vehicles around the camp.

It was crazy. I was frantically looking around for Channing Tatum and The Rock to show up!

No, CT aside, there were some very attractive young American lads on camp. They were all really friendly and helpful too. It was a lovely day full with really lovely people.

Thank you RAF Mildenhall


I loved the dog training that was displayed for us too. That was pretty cool.

 All in all, it was such a lovely day. I particularly liked the running class that Mark was coaching, along with other coaches. Everyone attempted to run, even on their every day legs, which I thought was brilliant!

I was always too scared to run on my everyday leg, as I didn’t trust the knee joint and thought it would buckle on me. It just goes to show that our biggest fears are mainly created through our limited self-belief.

You don’t NEED a blade prosthesis to run. If you really want to run you can try your hardest and you can do it on your everyday NHS leg.

Look at me! Can’t take my eyes off that beauty can I! LOVE IT!

However, the blade does give you so much more confidence to push yourself further. I am so proud of Mark and all he does to empower and encourage others. I will be forever grateful for your super kindness in raising money for my blade, as I’m sure Hannah is for me getting hers.

It’s such a lovely ripple effect of kindness and empowering others. I cannot wait to push this kindness on to someone else now…. but who will it be???? This one is going to be a total surprise for someone 😉  as it was for me.

For anyone out there feeling lonely and trapped because of their disability, please do get in touch with Steel Bones and follow the work they do. Such lovely friendly people.

“You are not alone, we are dedicated to helping civilian amputees.”

To read more about them on their website CLICK HERE

So after a full day of running, meeting and greeting, I was fairly drained of energy. But I didn’t have time to rest!

I drove into Cambridge to meet a friend and we went to see some live music in a cute country pub called The Corner House, where there were a few acts playing.

I do love my live music and although I was very tired from all the running, it was a really good night. Thank you Mike.

Can’t wait for the Gin festival next weekend and then seeing my work friend Jodie, playing in The Distillery Saturday night. To see She Beat Music on Facebook CLICK HERE

Talking of music, I’ll be seeing Ricky bloody Martin at the Gibraltar Rocks festival in September!!!! Living La Vida Loco

I cannot wait!!!! So excited for this now. If you’d like to see their line up CLICK HERE

I’ve been seeing so many snapchat stories with people at music festivals and it’s making me itch with excitement for this!!

They’ll be endless smiles here with myself, Tee, David and some of their friends. It’s going to be really lovely.

Until next time, peace xxx

Wimbledon with Tabitha

My gorgeous friend Tabitha so kindly invited me to join her on a little trip to Wimbledon!

My lovely friend Mary sent me this video of her gorgeous son Freddie pointing me out on the TV telling me he loved me! Melted my heart when I saw this. So cute!!! I love you too Freddie!!! And Felix of course,

Thank you Tabitha for having me as your date for this lovely day.

There is something really special with having afternoon tea with your dearest friend on a beautiful sunny day at Wimbledon ? 

I’m very lucky to have this lady in my life. She certainly makes me smile.

Push Your Limits – Every. Damn. Day.

“If you want to go fast, go alone. If you want to go far, go together.”

Massive THANK YOU to my incredibly kind and supportive friend Fabio for inviting myself and Hannah to a session of wake-boarding last Saturday.

The main goals are to share the attitude to live and love a limitless life without being scared to fail, because it is part of the progression and learning process.

As part of Fabio’s project for F-YourLimits – (which I think is a bloody great name for it, well done Fabio!) Hannah and I hit the water like a pair of amputee water babies!

I briefly met Fabio at an Arctic One event in May, (to see it on Facebook CLICK HERE)

I spoke about this event in a previous blog post, but to any new readers it was a para-triathlon, where Fabio and Hannah did the full circle, I did the 5k running section. I’m not too good on a bike and was too much of a wimp to do the lake swim!

Bravo to these two for completing the full thing in a really good time too!

Fabio & his lovely girlfriend Sara
Me finishing the 5k run
Hannah doing the full triathlon, with Mark & I cheering her across the finish line.

So I first saw an amputee in action on a wakeboard with my friend Jack Eyers who has a rather Bond like picture done with Models of Diversity. Great shot Jack!   

I have also seen the truly inspirational Amy Purdy on a board. A different type of amputation to myself and Jack but facing equal potential difficulties.

But fun, when overcoming a difficulty is SO MUCH MORE FUN!!!

Myself and Hannah with the lovely guy who owns WakePlus

The weather was so gorgeous for us too down at Wakeplusm- to see this place on Facebook CLICK HERE

This event was part of Fabio’s  F-yourlimits project that Fabio has created to inspire and encourage others with watersports.    The project is in collaboration with Wakeplus, ArcticOne, Alps Italy and Addicted Wake. If you’d like to know more about Fabio’s project and to see when you can get involved, do get in touch. You can like Fabio’s Facebook page when you CLICK HERE 

If you’d like to read Hannah’s review on this event CLICK HERE 

You can also see Fabio’s review on this when you CLICK HERE

Stay tuned for the next blog post of smiles for an update on my time at Wimbledon tomorrow. SO EXCITED FOR THIS!!!! Thank you so much to my darling Tabitha! Such a kind friend for inviting me. To see an update on this event CLICK HERE

Until next time, byeeeee xxx

Love is Power <3


There is so much love in my life right now and I’m so ridiculously lucky to have such incredible family and friends.

I want to take this space and time to thank you all for the love you share with me and let you know how immensely grateful I am to be blessed with you all.

You know who you are, I love you! xxx

Also,  I went to see Wonder Woman in the week with my friend Mike (The honorable, The incredible), and OH MY GOD! I have fallen head over heel with the gorgeous Israeli actress Gal Gadot-Varsano.

Gadot is primarily known for her role as Wonder Woman in the DC Extended Universe, starting with Batman v Superman: Dawn of Justice (2016), continuing as the lead in Wonder Woman. 

  • Gadot was born and raised in Israel.
  • At age 18 she was crowned Miss Israel 2004.
  • She then served two years as a soldier in the Israel Defense Forces where she was a combat trainer.
  • She began studying at IDC Herzliya college before pursuing modeling and acting.

Israel puts great emphasis on everybody being able to fight, which is why women are included in national service. It’s really forward thinking and they lead the way in female combat.

What a woman!!! She should inspire all women to do more with their lives too, I hope she has.

She certainly has for me. I’m not going to acting school and I doubt I’d be much help in combat, but she’s filled me with confidence to strive to achieve my goals and to make sure I always have some in place.

My goals right now are to become financially smart and buy my own property, however I’m not sure I can do it with my part time income. I’m not changing jobs though,  I love it too much at Free Radio, I will not be leaving all of the lovely people in that office!

I could do with another, maybe morning receptionist, job somewhere though. Hmmm I’ll get things sorted for myself soon anyway. Where there’s a will there’s a way!

I will be in my own place before the year is out! I promise to myself that goal WILL be achieved! #GirlPower 

Now I should write more here about the AMAZING time I had on a Wakeboard yesterday down at Taplow Lake with the lovely Fabio and my friend Hannah. We had such a great time and my arms are killing me today!

I feel this session needs a whole dedicated blog post with pictures and videos included though. My arms are too sore to do all of that today so I’ll save my energy to dedicate a post about it on Wedneday, once Fabio has video footage for me to include too. Can’t wait to see it all and share with you soon.

Until next time, stay lovely xxx